Isabella Oliver - mmmm

Wearing a very gorgeous new dress-jumper type creation that my marvellous man got me for Christmas. It's a little itchy - trying to decide whether I need something on under it, but then remembering that nearly everything I wear at the moment is making me itchy!
9 hours sleep last night, and no headache this morning, for the first time since Saturday - so maybe I'd been sleeping too much? Who knows...
Shoulder still intensley sore, from absolutely no provocation what so ever. Need a nice massage I reckon!

First sober Christmas eve in about 10 years...

...and I'm hoping that the drunk people don't totally do my head in!
We're taking two cars to the party tonight though, as there are 6 of
us, so I'll be able to remove myself early if it all gets too much!
Wee rascal moving more now I think, or at least I'm noticing it more.
Bump (what little there is of it) is now covered in a layer of
Christmas flab, even though it's not even Christmas yet! So now I
definitely look fat, and not pregnant.
C'est la vie.

Rebellion on my hands

Well, since I have actually dared to ask this class to do work, I seem
to have rebellion on my hands. Actually, in fairness, most of the
class seem to be mostly on task - however reluctantly... Lets hope it
lasts until the end of the lesson! 30 minutes to go!

Last day of term!

So, the end is in sight. 4 lots of 35 minutes to struggle through on
the route to freedom. I hope I make it! I think I've managed to keep
the pregnancy secret from the kids - I just look fat! - and now I know
at least 20 other staff know, and probably a few more that just
haven't mentioned anything yet, so that's not too bad really. I
imagine when I am back in January, at over halfway through then it
might be a little more obvious to everyone, but at least I'll have had
another scan by then and be feeling well and truly happy with
everything! Not that I'm not happy now, but you know what I mean.

Bump?

Is it a bump? Flab? Who's to say...

Doing my head in...

It seems like silly season has started - classes wild and it's the
second last week of term - I dread to think what it'll be like next
week, and being observed with this current lot of little darlings next
Monday... just had work flying off a drill and components being lifted
from my desk without permission so they're now all writing out from a
text book on Health and Safety for me - will they ever learn - yes! If
i've got anything to do with it!
At least they are being quiet now. I've got a thumping headache - I
think it's the fumes from soldering - bad ventilation - but so cold
with the windows open!
Off to games next lesson - at least the fresh air might lift my
headache - must remember to tell someone I can't do Wednesday
afternoon training this week...

16 weeks, an extra scan

So after horrendous cramps and pain and agony earlier this week, I convinced myself that everything had gone horribly wrong. Thanks to Fab Doctor though I got an appointment today to put my mind at rest, and the wee rascal was wiggling around as much as ever! We could see the heartbeat, spine and ribs! Not enough detail to see boy or girl though, not that we wanted to know! How totally amazing!

Dental hygiene

Well, since it's free at the moment, I'm off to get my teeth cleaned
by the dentist - he said last time I had lovely teeth!

The lack of gossip

I'm really surprised at how slow news travels at school. That is, not at all!
I've told another colleague today, as he asked me had I been boozing
and smoking recently so it was the opener I needed to announce I was
pregnant... I think actually his question was a leader, but that's OK,
I was happy enough to tell! Quite pleased to really if I'm honest!
Off to Early Pregnancy Class at the hospital tonight, so hopefully get
to chat to other new mums due around the same time :)

only 188 days to go apparently

which seems like bugger all and an awful lot at the same time! I feel it's quite significant to be 3 months now, feels more real and worthwhile somehow. I did wonder if I felt the wee bump move yesterday, but I'm guessing it's probably far too early for that - felt like something was trying to turn around inside me, but probably just trapped wind!

Still haven't told anyone at work, asides from those hoigh up who need to know. I really want to tell people now, but I still don't feel like I know any of the teachers well enough to be someone to confide in. Last week in the staffroom I made some comment about being really hungry but not feeling like eating or something, and one of the other new teachers was like, oh you're not pregnant are you? And I just said I didn't want to talk about it! That was my opening to tell someone I guess, but I didn't want to do it in a room full of people, half of whom I don't even know their names. But I don't know anyone well enough to just tell them without there being some precursor in the conversation to lead it that way :( Maybe next time someone asks me if I'm playing rugby this weekend then instead of persisting with my 'excuses' I'll just tell them. Who knows. Maybe I'll just wait until it's so bloody obvious that someone has to ask me!

The weekend is over...

...for another week. Just ironed my work trousers to try and help dry them, but they should be OK by the morning (I hope!). Just picked mum and dad up from the airport, then had takeaway pizza with them for tea - very yummy!

School and rugby and parents afternoon to look forward to this week, but also meeting up with a friend that I haven't seen since summer, so that's going to be fun.

Went and watched the ladies play rugby this afternoon, they lost, but played really well! And they hadn't all forgotten who I was either! Hopefully will be back training with them to do some fitness, just as soon as I'm feeling less knackered!

And on that note, time for bed...

Telling work!

So I told my head of department yesterday morning, and he was great! Congratulated me and reassured me that my exam classes would be gone by the time I go on maternity leave, and that he know some teachers not working that want to do a maternity cover :) Made me so chuffed! Then he wished me luck telling the Head - oh dear that doesn't sound good! I've got an appointment during a non-contact period tomorrow, so I hope it goes OK!
Just typing and watching some pretty good fireworks outside the window... a little late for Hallowe'en but very cool nonetheless.
It's also really nice having an ally in the department, he called through my room today, just to see if I'd spoken to the head yet, sort of a little aside comment, which felt pretty good... next step will be being able to talk about it in the staffroom!

Last day of holiday

The week has flown by, with mother in law visiting and getting the news of her first grandchild and telling anyone and everyone about our happy news (except my boss, still nervous about that), and then getting away for a couple of days with my wonderful husband - lots of walking and eating - one counteracts the other, and obviously I'd never eat more than I was going to burn off!
So now it's the last day of the break, and I'm setting a test for my seniors to take on Tuesday, they'll just love me for it!
I've also figured out that we can keep the double bed in the spare room, and fit in a cot and changing table, so it's all good!

Tell the world...

...so it seems like everyone knows now! Apart from our employers as we're both off work this week. Really not sure what reaction I'm going to get from school. Very excited to have finally shared the news with everyone though!

Scan!

Just back from the hospital...

10 weeks + 5 days

So much for going home early

I have two non-teaching periods at the end of the day today, and I was harbouring a glimmer of hope that I could go home early tonight, but not such luck - I've been taken for standby to cover a colleague last lesson - ah well... what goes around comes around, my day will come.

Had a horrible dream last night where despite being pregnant, I went and got completely hammered on vodka and didn't go to bed until 5am before going to work - I was so relieved to wake up and realise it had all been a dream!

Public transport

Just almost had a minor panic when I thought I wasn't going to get a
seat on the train. How pathetic! The thought of standing all the way
home just filled me with dread... I had to sit down during assembly
yesterday which brought interesting questions from colleagues, it will
be a relief when they know! Then I can also stop making up crap
excuses for why I haven't played rugby yet this season!

9 weeks and 4 days

OK, so I reckon my back looks bigger than my belly in this photo! I suppose this is so far a good thing. My weight has gone up 2lb in the last 5 weeks, which I reckon is pretty good going at any rate :)

Fresher Flu, pupil induced sickness

Just pondering my luck to not have been ill so far this term. Am in my
meeting now sitting opposite a lady who's been off with gastric flu
for a week, and doesn't think she's well yet. Knowing my luck I'll get
sick off a teacher!

Things I didn't know...

Well, I don't know if I wanted to know this or not - missed miscarriages - never heard of such a thing until this week, and now I am utterly paranoid.
Had a lovely day today though, have baked a Christmas cake (too early?) and made some apple tartlets, and been domestic god and goddess with hubby - very nice indeed! He is now cooking dinner, and I'm getting to kick back and relax.
Was going to upload some more photos, but I can't find the lead to hook camera to computer.
And I'm out of school tomorrow again on a course, lie in, early finish, and then only 4 days until I have a week off!

Duty and cakes

Missed the staff meeting today as I was on duty at recess. Managed to snaffle a wee half caramel square, only to discover that the other teacher on duty managed to get two! The meeting went on for ages, which meant I couldn't sneak back in for more at the end of break! My mission now is to get this class away on time so I can get to the canteen before all the nice toasted sandwiches are sold!

Chish and Fips

Well, chicken burger and chips to be fair, but very delicious!
I have a lie in (all be it a tiny one) tomorrow, as I'm off on a course that doesn't start until 9.30, and finishes at 3pm - bring it on :)

First lie-in for weeks!

Finally I have had a lovely lazy Sunday for the first time since finding out I was pregnant. I had 12 hours sleep, and loved every minute of it (only 2 nighttime toilet trips). I am now lounging around, watching sport on TV, and thinking about taking a walk around the garden. It really is rather marvellous to have nothing to do - I made sure I was up to date with planning and marking on Friday before leaving school, so I could enjoy a guilt free weekend off.
Mother in Law is visiting in the Hallowe'en holidays, also here while we go for scan, so we will be breaking the news to her then. Also thinking of booking a couple of nights away for hubby and I so we get a wee holiday of our own :)
I think maybe a cup of tea and a slice of cake now, then I might venture outside.

Lunch with mum

Just had lunch with mum, who has now read my blog start to finish... I now have an audience of at least two! I wonder if there's any way to tell if people have been reading it?

8 weeks :)

So this feels like a little mini milestone - 1/5th of the way there, 20% over...
Have felt queasy the last couple of mornings, but I'm wondering if it's the smell of our boiler that is making me feel worse, as this morning I didn't feel dodgy until I walked in to the room with the boiler.
Got myself and nice new maternity bra today as well, my ( .)( .)s are well huge now!

Mmmm, pizza

I'm such a sucker for advertising, that after seeing a cheesy bites Pizza Hut advert my hubby is now collecing Pizza for us :)

Exhaustion

Losing the will to live. Steadily. I am now feeling totally rained. It's not even recess yet and I'm done for.

Class are working well, so I should be thankful for small mercies I suppose, but I'm being really uncoordinated and totally unable to provide meaningful feedback.

Queasy

Woke up this morning feeling distinctly queasy for the first time. This was a somewhat unpleasant experience. I wasn't actually sick, and I ate my breakfast without incident, but doing everything was just very hard work - this is at least the last day of feeding the neighbour's cats, which will be one less thing to have to deal with in the morning!

Am now 10 mins from the end of my first lesson and totally drained already. This is hard work. I will be glad when I've had my scan and told the school.

Do I tell my Head of Faculty first, or straight to the head teacher I wonder?

Booking appointment booked

30 October, 8.40am. It's during half term which is ideal, no awkward questions to answer. And I suppose that at least being so early means that my appointment is unlikely to be running late!
That will mean I am 10 weeks + 4 days when I go in (by my calculations!) and then hopefully I'll get an accurate due date!

It must be hate

If anything was going to make me quit teaching, it would be that class. They make me hate myself by the end of the lesson. I have no control over what is happening, it is a miracle that any of them are producing any work at all.

They tire me (when I am now already knackered all the time) and depress me. They show absolutely no respect what so ever. I'm not saying that I've earned their respect, but not even basic human courtesy is shown. They are rude, they answer back, they are uncooperative, they don't listen to anything I say and they make me feel pathetic.

I want to cry.

But I'm not going to.

Or at least I'm going to try not to.

17%

Being the nerd that I am, I have just calculated that I am 17% of the way through my pregnancy. Somehow this seems more (or more satisfying) than saying 6 weeks and 5 days.

I will be 25% on 26 Oct - just at mid term break! (that's 10 weeks, and also hopefully will have a scan that week - I don't know how long I should expect to wait to be sent an appointment?)

 

I want to tell!

I am bursting to tell people. I know in my heart of hearts I'm waiting for a scan, but I want to tell!!

6 weeks + 3 days - Symptoms?

I know I shouldn't complain to not be sticken with morning sickness, and only have tiredness and sore boobs to complain about, but I can't help thinking that I should have some more signs that I am actually pregnant. I feel like I should do another test just to check, even though I've had no indication that anything might have gone wrong. I guess I just want to look pregnant too or at least feel that things are changing and progressing.

Child in school with an unexplained rash

Just discovered I've been teaching a boy that's been off with a rash and high temperature, and tests can't determine what is wrong with him. Am now paranoid that I'll have caught something from him which will cause complications :(

More signals means less delays

Oh dear London Underground

Pressure

I ended up feeling quite under pressure today to do things that a pregnant lady just shouldn't have to do, except that I haven't told everyone I'm pregnant yet, and didn't want to do that today, so I just ended up looking moody and uncooperative - oh well!
Have also been feeling a bit light headed today - I hope this isn't a precursor to nausea and sickness :(

6 weeks and feeling less tired

I have a new theory since coming back from the residential - I need to eat more... still trying to do Weight Watchers has been sapping my energy I think - although I was surviving on a daily basis it wasn't much fun.
I ate well on the school trip, and feel less tired now. Also having eaten a decent lunch at school for the last two days, I'm not having to nap in the evening. Saying that, maybe it's just a coincidence and I'm just naturally less tired at this stage of the game.
I really hope that this morning sickness lark is genetic, as mum said she had none with my brother or I!
Busy weekend - rugby all the way (not playing obviously) but coaching for school, then on a coaching course too!

Canoeing

So far so good. Attempted the climbing wall, although I didn't make it
all the way up- my tutor group were very encouraging though! Watching
the kids canoeing now, relaxing in the sunshine, so not too bad!
Should survive now until I get home to bed tonight!

8 hours sleep, blooming marvellous!

The kids were in bed by half 10 and there was not a peep out of them
after 10.55! Saying that i've just had a small boy at the door unable
to put his sleeping bag in a stuff sack, before i'm up and dressed! I
guess that means I need to get a move on!

Residential here I come

just waiting for my dad to give me a lift in to school - thought I was going to be lugging my rucksack on the train, so it is quite a relief to be going in the car! I will have to take the train home tomorrow though, but I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Losing it!

Oh I've just reached that utter exhaustion stage. COuld barely finish that lesson. I need to sleep, but as I've already discovered dozing off in the staffroom begs too many questions and comments, I think I need another alternative. Could I sleep at my desk or will boys and girls be laughing in the window at me?! I can't think, let alone teach. The sooner I have told people at school, the easier this will be - but I think 5 +3 is too soon :(

 

School residential trip tomorrow

So tomorrow I am heading away for an overnight trip with my Form 1 tutor group. Should be a good laugh, certainly different from sitting in a classroom all day anyway. I don't know how I'm going to manage tiredness wise though. At the moment I'm needing to get home and have a wee sleep as soon as I get in and before I even think about whawt's happening that evening (my husband does the cooking mostly, so that's one less thing to worry about, in general), so being away for 2 days will be quite tough. I'm consideirng bedding down in my store today for a wee lunch time nap. The monring up to breaktime is bearable, but break is too short to be particularly re-energising, so that double lesson leading up to lunch will be tough today. This time tomorrow I'll have arrived at the outdoor pursuits place, and probably have been dragged in to a canoe by now :) I just hope to god they all sleep tomorrow night, as I've been asleep sound from 10 until half 6 recently, and I dread to think how I'll cope on Wednesday if they keep me up all night!

Tired

Do I eat my dinner first, then watch a DVD, or do both at the same time?! I will want to go to bed about 9pm, which will look unusual to everyone, but do I really care?!
Oh, too many options as far as I'm concerned :(

too full

Just been out for brunch for my brother's birthday - very delicious but I ate too much. My brother and his girl friend don't know yet.
Having been to the loo twice already, didn't really want to dash out again - didn't really need to wee, just felt so bloated!
Have now been for a walk along the seafront, and back through the park, so feeling a lot better, but exhausted now - that last walk back up the hill is what really kills me - and I'm on the train to work all this week, so I expect I'll be dead on my feet by Friday.
Saying that, the outdoor pursuits place for two days may do for me long before then! I don't know when to tell people at school, it's weird being so new and not really having any close friends on the staff yet; will have to tell my head of dept soon though for risk assessments etc to be done.
Going for a wee lie down now with my caffeine free diet coke, and then some planning for this week - or maybe I should do the planning/marking first, or it may never get done - but then if I'm putting myself, my health and my sanity first, then maybe that's OK!

5 weeks plus 2 days

Here is my belly, not growing yet, but this is my benchmark